Since when did adults become so damn boring?

I remember as a kid, I always thought grown-ups were boring. They were in to boring shit, talked about boring stuff, and everything fun and simple had to be made overly complicated.

I remember being at Whidbey Island once, and wanting to head over to the beach with my aunt, but I had to wait while she finished her coffee. That seemed like it took forever. Of course, now-a-days, I don�t go Anywhere until I finish my coffee.

Why did it get exponentially more difficult to just have fun when we got older. Why are we all so god-damn� Dull?!

Okay, I realize that I�m lazy� Incredibly lazy, as the case may very well be � or is it that I just don�t care � but I just get tired of how everyone lets there jobs get in the way of living their life.

It annoys me that people feel like they have to do the laundry or clean the kitchen instead of just saying, �fuck it, let�s just go do something.�

And why does that �something� have to be so thought/and/or/planned out? What about simple pleasures.

This time of year always seems to remind me of lost youth. It�s no wonder. When I was a kid, I could just amuse myself as the long summer days ticked by, enjoying almost unbelievable freedom, not a care in the world. It was great. It didn�t seem all that difficult to �enjoy� life. I didn�t have to put any real though or effort into it. I just did it. I enjoyed myself, just� being, doing� whatever.

Then, we start to make things complicated for ourselves. It�s really stupid. We have to �do� something. We have to make something of our time. Accomplish something� blah blah blah what a bunch of bullshit. Because the next thing we know, we realize we have to put some effort into doing things so we can �enjoy� ourselves. We realize we have to schedule time for �fun� things, if we can afford to, after all, well, gosh, I gotta go to work tomorrow , and you know, I had a hard day, and I�m just beat, and well, you know, I�ve been working a lot lately and I THOUGHT I WOULD JUST PISS AWAY MY FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course, people always tell me the same things. �Well, that�s just the reality of it.� Bullshit. Reality is whatever we want it to be. In fact, we all live in two separate, often conflicting realities at once. First there is our own, the reality that we construct out of our perceptions. It�s our version of the �truth,� if you will. Then, there is the greater reality of the world around us, the truth that exists around us, that is built by everything we touch or interact with.

They are both bullshit, in fact. The reality we build for ourselves is full of half-truths, skewed memories, self-delusional bullshit� it is a self-serving entity. We construct revisionist histories out of our past events, listen to what we want to and see what we want to so we can support our arbitrary biases.

Of course, the �greater� reality is actually nothing but. They can�t see what we are thinking or feeling. We can�t know what They are thinking or feeling. It is constructed only out of what is shared knowledge. Most of us tell ourselves, often rightfully so, that the �greater� reality is incomplete because it hasn�t been seasoned by our own perceptions. The �greater� reality, in fact, doesn�t really exist, beyond purely conceptually, because it is �downloaded� through the filter of Everyone�s perceptions, and they are all uniquely different.

But now I�m rambling and I need to go to bed.